Tracy’s reviews Denial, Deceit, Discovery by J. James. (The book was published by Inkslingers Publishing on March 16, 2014).
This book was provided free of charge for an honest review by the author
Denial, Deceit, Discovery is the heart-rending story based on true events in the life of Jack Ellis; a young Catholic man deep in denial of his own homosexuality. It tells the story of how his own denial and the denial of his loved ones forced him to conform to the straight world, resulting in his marriage to his high school sweetheart. After years of cruising gay porn sites, chatting online with endless guys and intimate encounters with close friends, Jack was pulled into a life of deceit with a string of sexual partners.
The story explains the pain and suffering of those around him as his secrets unfold and honesty rises up. The torture endured as Jack struggles to piece together the complex story of his own sexuality is truly moving. Escaping the shame, Jack flees to Bangkok with his gay lover where a much greater world of deceit and discovery awaits them both.
This book is based on True Life Events…..
I chose to read this book because the title intrigued me. The book cover is stunning and fits the book perfectly.
I really don’t know what I was expecting when I started to read this book as this is a new author to me. I struggled a little with writing style until I got used it. The book is written in first person which isn’t my first choice when reading a book but the author has such a style to his writing that drew me in and made me want to keep reading.
This book is a book of three parts Denial, Deceit and Discovery.
Denial: Jack telling himself he is not gay. This has a slow build up with lots of background of him growing up, his friends, his childhood experiences and his marriage.
Deceit: Jack thinks he may be GAY. He is still married, but the need to be with another male is overwhelming him. He needs to tell the truth but he can’t, he doesn’t want to hurt anyone. He can’t hide his feeling forever.
Discovery: Jack is defiantly gay. His first gay relationship isn’t perfect, they are just not right for each other. He then has lots of hook-ups which doesn’t feel right. He like sex, lots of sex. Eventually he has a scare which sets him on the right road to meet his one true love.
Overall a well written book about a guy struggling to be the real him. The problems he encounters when he finally admits to being gay.
Well worth reading, more so as the book is based on true events.
I have really struggled when rating this book, I have to rate as three separate parts of the book.
Denial 7/10 Deceit 10/10, Discovery 10/10, Overall 9/10
After over a decade of teaching, educational management and administration, James needed to find an outlet to share his personal story. As a lifelong lover of literature and writing, James has dedicated his career to educating students, helping them develop the tools they’ll need to share their stories in the future.
His first manuscript was inspired by the response James received from the Catholic priest who officiated his marriage annulment. As part of the process, James was asked to submit a small document outlining his feelings about the events that culminated in the failure of his marriage. The priest commented that the piece was the most moving and impactful account he had ever read. He called it an “inspiration” to other men and women struggling with similar situations. After exploring many options, James realized that his story could help people to understand the complex issues facing gay men in denial – hopefully, helping to spare others from the heartache he and his loved ones experienced.
James currently lives and works in Southeast Asia. He enjoys the tropical climate, and the relaxed pace, which has provided him with the opportunity to continue developing ideas for his second novel.
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