Thank you so much for welcoming me to Rainbow Gold Reviews for my Here Without You blog tour. I am here today to discuss what I have gained – and lost – by taking a risk.
I have taken quite a few risks in my writing career, the most recent being self-publishing. I made the choice to self-publish my first YA lesbian romance, Come To My Window, so that I could make comparisons to publishing with a press. From this experience, I have gained and lost a great deal.
What I have gained:
Above all, I have learned, and yes, much of it was the hard way. I have gained a great deal of knowledge about what it takes to get a book to the figurative “shelves”. In this learning process, I have networked with friends to find an editor and a cover artist and a formatter. I have also gained, through sheer necessity, the ability to make decisions that are not easy, from small things, like matte or glossy, to big things, like through which means should I acquire my ISBN numbers. I have learned a lot about the process of publishing, in terms of the creation of a viable book, to the distribution sites.
I have gained confidence in my ability to step out of the box, in this case going to a publisher, to try something new. I am actually surprised I did this, as I tend to be a creature of habit. And just the fact that I followed through on this path provides me with a new sureness in myself.
Some very difficult events unfolded as I attempted to self-publish, and this was both positive and negative for me, but it led me to gain new relationships. Several people reached out to me in my time of need and offered their services, which I accepted, leading to deeper friendships and some new, excellent caliber assistants.
I have gained a book that is all my own. I wrote it, I made all the decisions leading to its publishing, and I arranged for it to be published. (Yes, I did have help.)
I would love to dwell completely on the positive, but the question is what have I gained and lost by taking a risk. So now I will tell you what I have lost by self-publishing.
What I have lost:
I have lost some relationships, as the self-publishing process did not flow smoothly. This led to great stress, so I suppose I lost some peace of mind. Without going into detail, I will say that this was a very difficult time for all involved.
I have spent a lot of money. When you self-publish, every service you choose to use, must be paid for. So, all of the things that are done for no cost with a press, are things you must budget for. So, I spent a fairly large sum, which I have kept careful track of, and I will have to wait to see if I will ultimately make any profit in the endeavor.
With every risk, you gain and lose, but most importantly you learn a lot.
Publisher: Dreamspinner Press
Cover Artist: Paul Richmond (Photograph by Dan Skinner)
Note: Book two of the Once Voice series. Can be read as a standalone, but not suggested.
With all of his scratched and dented heart, Nate DeMarco wants to be two places at once, but he’s been forced to make an unbearable choice. Having barely survived high school, Nate and his boyfriends, Casey Minton and Zander Zane, are ready to move forward in life. Casey and Zander have left home to attend Boston City College. Nate remains in New Hampshire to protect his volatile younger sister from their increasingly violent, alcoholic uncle. Nate suffers with anger, resentment, and loneliness as he battles what he wants against what he feels he must do.
Now separated, the young men fight to stay in contact. However, they’re each faced with their own separate issues. Casey must cope with residual fear from having been bullied in high school. Zander obsesses over the establishment of One Voice, the new gay-straight alliance at Boston City College. Nate fights for his sister’s very survival. Meanwhile, the intensity of the boys’ relationship increases, both sexually and emotionally, as happens in long distance relationships.
Nate’s futile effort to live two lives leads to tragedy, which blasts Nate, Casey, and Zander apart. Can the three young men find their way back to a united path before it’s too late?
Categories: Contemporary, Gay Fiction, M/M Romance, Menage/Poly, New Adult, Romance
2 NATE’S DIARY
August 23 (they only been gone about half a week now)
SO MAYBE this is a bit fucked up, but I’m gonna put it down on paper in black and white, and maybe when I read it back to myself, it’ll seem more normal.
Here’s the thing. Like Casey says, us three is a throuple. Three dudes in love. Whatever. Cuz I sure as shit love them guys, and nothin’s gonna change that. So, yeah. There’s two dudes in place A and one dude, alone, in place B. I just figured them two would be gettin’ busy in bed in their fancy dorm room whenever they had a chance—cuz that’s what guys do, right?
Well, apparently not so much. Last night they Skyped me. There them two were, sittin’ all cozy on Casey’s rainbow-colored bedspread. The floppy stuffed unicorn that me and Zander gave him for Christmas junior year was propped up behind ’em, starin’ at the computer, like it was lookin’ right at yours truly. I felt real alone and a little like a loser (fucked-up fact is they only been gone a couple days), but I leaned back on my bed and acted like I didn’t give a shit.
Casey said, in this adorable proper voice, “Nate, there’s a topic Zander and I feel it’s imperative we discuss. It’s a matter of great importance.” He already sounds like a doctor, and he’s only a freshman in college.
Zander was just starin’ into the computer at me, sorta studyin’ my I-don’t-give-a-shit-about-nothin’ expression.
“What’s such a big friggin’ deal, babe? Lay it on me.” That was pretty cool soundin’, I thought.
“Well, Zander and I want to have a discussion about…. Nate, we want to discuss physical intimacy. In that….”
Even on Skype I could see that two spots on Casey’s cheeks had turned bright pink. Looked like he was having trouble spittin’ this out. And he was the talker in our throuple.
“Zander and I are here together, without you, and we’ve talked about this—”
“I expect you two’ve been goin’ to town on each other every night since you got to college and are prob’ly itchin’ to strip each other down right now.” Both of my guys’ eyes popped open wide when I said that.
“Actually, Nate.” Zander spoke up cuz it seemed that Casey was suddenly at a loss for words. “We haven’t, and we’re not gonna.”
“Huh?” That just kinda flew outta my mouth. “Come again, guy?”
Casey found his voice. “We aren’t going to sleep together unless you’re with us. We discussed it, and neither of us think it would feel right.” He glanced at Zander, and them two nodded at each other. “We aren’t going to do anything in bed together until you’re here for a visit.”
Mia Kerick is the mother of four exceptional children—all named after saints—and five nonpedigreed cats—all named after the next best thing to saints, Boston Red Sox players. Her husband of twenty-two years has been told by many that he has the patience of Job, but don’t ask Mia about that, as it is a sensitive subject.
Mia focuses her stories on the emotional growth of troubled young people and their relationships, and she believes that physical intimacy has a place in a love story, but not until it is firmly established as a love story. As a teen, Mia filled spiral-bound notebooks with romantic tales of tortured heroes (most of whom happened to strongly resemble lead vocalists of 1980s big-hair bands) and stuffed them under her mattress for safekeeping. She is thankful to Dreamspinner Press, Harmony Ink Press, and CreateSpace for providing her with alternate places to stash her stories.
Mia is a social liberal and cheers for each and every victory made in the name of human rights, especially marital equality. Her only major regret: never having taken typing or computer class in school, destining her to a life consumed with two-fingered pecking and constant prayer to the Gods of Technology.
Where to find Mia:
Dreamspinner Author Arcade: http://www.dreamspinnerpress.com/AuthorArcade/mia-kerick/bio/
I would like to give a big Thank You to Mia Kerick and Will at Pride Promotions for letting us take place in this Blog Tour.