Dare to Hope (All Cocks Stories #4) by T.M. Smith, Joel Leslie (Narrator) #Review #Audio #MMM #PTSD

Melissa reviews Dare to Hope (All Cocks Stories #4) by T.M. Smith, narrated by Joel Leslie.  Published March 23rd 2017 by TTC Publishing; 6 hours and 13 minutes.

Dare to HopeTristan is the second oldest of the Brennan brothers and the odd man out. Most of the Brennan men have careers in law enforcement, but as a psychiatrist, Tristan chooses to help people in a different way. Quiet and restrained, he is content to hover in the background of his more gregarious brothers. Then he meets two men, each broken and damaged from losses beyond their control.

Gabriel Simenson is mourning his lover’s death. The random act of violence that took Gio’s life has left everyone at All Cocks reeling. The only thing keeping Gabe from drowning in misery is the friendship he’s forged with Micah, the newest model at All Cocks. He continues to struggle, and at the urging of his All Cocks family Gabe agrees to counseling with Tristan under one condition: Micah must go with him.

Micah Solo can relate to unbearable loss, having lost his leg and so much more in Iraq. The past two years he has been alone, adrift and vulnerable – the memories of war haunting his dreams, spilling over into his daily life. At All Cocks, Micah has found the acceptance he craves and the family he lost, but still he yearns for happiness and peace within.

The friendship between the three is instant, the mutual attraction evident. They circle each other, wanting more, yet unsure if it is truly possible. Is life the mundane reality they’ve each come to accept for themselves or do they dare to hope?

The All Cocks Stories is a series set within the world of online gay porn. Micah’s PTSD is told in detail, including flashbacks to his time in Iraq.

A complementary audio was provided by the author in exchange for an honest review.

Why I read this book: I have thoroughly enjoyed Joel Leslie’s narrations before and was interested to hear how he portrayed three different characters.

Review

The blurb for this story really caught my attention and it hit so many things on my list of likes: partner death = angst; PTSD = angst; porn; ménage; odd brother out. And then for the audio to be narrated by Joel Leslie (who I have enjoyed before), yep, I knew I had to take a chance.

I’ve never read anything by this author and I am really interested in starting this series from the beginning. While Dare to Hope is a standalone novel, the characters continue from previous books in this series. I have to wonder if Gabe and his husband Gio were visible in past books; it would have made more of an impact for me if that were true.

This isn’t a light read; it’s filled with deep emotions and dark places. Gabe is mourning the loss of his husband who was murdered. Micah is a veteran suffering from PTSD after an attack that killed his wartime lover and the rest of his team. It also left Micah scarred and missing his leg. Tristan is a psychiatrist who is still going to school to get his full diploma, but is currently treating Gabe for his depression.

Micah and Gabe both work for All Cocks and live at the home of Victor, Andrew and Mathew, the owners/operators/married thruple of All Cocks. Micah and Gabe turn to each other for comfort and have the support of their All Cocks family during their rough times. Gabe and Micah comforting each other during their darkest times was sweet to watch. Neither man wanted to hurt the other and Micah is still grieving and can’t emotionally connect with anyone. Sexual release is one thing, love is something else entirely. Micah is very understanding and doesn’t turn his back on Gabe. Now that is true love and friendship.

When Tristan enters the picture and Micah eventually agrees to treatment for his PTSD, it’s obvious Tristan cares for both Micah and Gabe. Talk about an ethical conundrum!

It took a while for the relationship between these men to get past the “friends” stage because each party was confused as to what they wanted. They all knew they found each man attractive and wanted them, but they didn’t know how the other felt. I sympathized with this because nobody likes rejection and not only that, but Gabe is still getting over the death of his husband, and neither man wants to push Gabe before he is ready.

I liked these men together, they just seemed to fit and be what the other needed. That’s not to say there weren’t moments that made me want to just yell at them and say TALK to each other. This is book 4 in a series and I wish I would have read this series from the start. Other characters beyond our 3 MCs are in this story, and it was really hard to keep track of all the names and who was who. Sometimes the flashbacks were hard to distinguish from present time and that added to the confusion.

I do recommend this story, but also suggest you don’t just jump in with book 4. 🙂

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Where to buy: Amazon, Audible, Barnes & Noble, iTunes

Author_Bio

TM Smith;  A military brat born and raised at Ft. Benning Georgia; TM Smith is an avid reader, reviewer and writer. A Texas transplant, she now calls DFW her home. Most days she can be found curled up with a good book, or ticking away on her next novel.

Smith is a single mom of three disturbingly outspoken and decidedly different kids, one of which is Autistic. Besides her writing, she is passionate about Autism advocacy and LGBT rights. Because, seriously people, Love is Love!

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