Feel My Pain by K. A. Merikan #Audiobook #LGBT #Review #MMRomance #Distrubing

Erryn reviews ‘Feel My Pain’ by K. A. Merikan.  Published by Acerbi & Villani ltd on March 28, 2020. The audiobook was released July 14, 2020, is narrated by Kirt Graves and is 11hrs and 26min.  A copy was provided in exchange for an honest review.

Why I read this book: I loved Wrong Way Home.

Two enemies cursed to feel each other’s pain.

Zane: “I will burn your life to the ground.”

Roach: “I’m a cockroach. I’ll survive.”

Two years ago, the Rabid Hyenas MC ripped Zane apart like a pack of starving wolves. But he’s not only a survivor, he took revenge that same night. Turns out, one of the bikers is still alive, and as long as that’s the case, Zane will not know peace. Especially since Roach is the dirtbag who caused all the mayhem in the first place.

When an act of revenge meant to close that chapter of Zane’s life takes a shocking turn, all hell breaks loose. Roach’s pain is his. When Roach bleeds, he does. When Zane suffers, Roach screams. So, until Zane can figure out how to lift the curse and kill Roach, he’s stuck caring for the dumbass who drinks too much, works like a dog, and hasn’t moved on an inch since he lost his motorcycle club.

But Roach has other plans for the man twisting his miserable life around. For him, Zane is hope, lust, and love combined, so Roach will gladly stay bound to him forever. Even if it kills them. 

Dirty, dark, and delicious, Feel My Pain is a gritty M/M dark romance novel with magical elements and a happy ending. Prepare for violence, intense jealousy, and scorching hot, emotional, explicit scenes.

Warning: This story contains scenes of violence, offensive language, and morally ambiguous characters, as well as sensitive topics of child abuse, addiction, and suicide.

Buy Links: Audible | Amazon | Add to Goodreads

My Review:

I always hesitate when I have the chance to listen to a K.A. Merikan book.  Their books don’t allow for a wishy-washy response.  It’s visceral.  You either love them or you hate them.  This is one I loved.

Roach and Zane aren’t likeable men.  Attractive?  Sure.  Bad boys?  You bet.  Would your mama want you to bring one home?  Oh hell no.

Reed ‘Roach’ Denver has had a tough go of it.  He’s been raised under the boot of a father who runs a biker gang and a biker bar.  He’s been forced to do some horrific things.  On the exterior he’s all rough, tough, and harsh.

Zane is gorgeous, all long hair and sexy body.  He’s a musician who uses sex to get what he wants and has never hidden who he is.  After playing a set at a random biker bar, he winds up in a back room with Roach who is so far in the closet a search party would have to find him.  Things go well and then things go badly.

Two years later Zane comes back to town with his ‘band’.  He knows this is a bad idea but the money is good and he doesn’t have a lot of options.  While he’s playing he sees Roach and a flood of emotions besets him.  I wasn’t sure which way this might go, but it’s clear hate is right up there with lust.

The synopsis talks about when one bleeds the other bleeds as well.  The men are so connected that one cannot live without the other.  If one dies, the other will likely die as well.  Makes revenge kind of tough.  There’s also humor – one morning Zane wants Roach to get out of bed.  Zane steps into a freezing cold shower and Roach is in that bathroom in no time demanding the hot water be turned on.  I thought the pain was only physical, but there were moments when it crossed over to the emotional as well.

The men have the choice of either learning to live with this unholy bond or breaking it.  Sounds simple, but is in no way easy to accomplish.

Both men are damaged and I love that.  Both men are capable of compassion and I love that as well.  In the end, both seek forgiveness and redemption.  But will they ever find a way to live with each other?

This book is one massive mind fuck – exactly what I’ve learned to expect from K.A. Merikan.

I adore Kirt Graves and he was perfect as narrator for this twisted piece.  He gave it the right nuance.  I can recommend this book but be forewarned – those trigger warnings exist for a reason.

My Rating:

9/10 Pots of Gold (100% Recommended) – Compares to 4.5/5 Stars

K. A. Merikan is the pen name for Kat and Agnes Merikan, a team of writers, who are taken for sisters with surprising regularity.

They love the weird and wonderful, stepping out of the box, and bending stereotypes both in life and books. When you pick up a Merikan book, there’s one thing you can be sure of – it will be full of surprises.

To keep up to date with their new releases (and get a free book in the process!) sign up to their newsletter: http://kamerikan.com/newsletter

e-mail: kamerikan@gmail.com

More information about ongoing projects, works in progress and publishing at:
K.A. Merikan’s author page: http://kamerikan.com

– We are Polish,
– We’re neither sisters nor a couple,
– Kat’s an artist, and Agnes is a psychologist but neither works in her field,
– Kat’s fingers are two times longer than Agnes’s.

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